pretty much i've been like depressed all the time lately. i mean. when i get sad. it hits. even like a little bit sad.

So pretty much lately I've been thinking about the future. My education. Currently I'm enrolled at OC. But I think next year I'm gonna transfer to UCO. I really want to go to OC but it will get very expensive doing what I want. I was thinking monotony in spanish and majoring in psych. But now I think I'm gonna major in Spanish depending on how much I can learn. I might could learn enough in minoring. So I might just do that. But either way it will be very expensive at OC. And I have to take bible classes. Which wouldn't be bad. But it takes up time that could be used to focus on my major. And also chapel will get in the way of work and classes. I have to juggle both. It's really busy and expensive on top of that. If I so transfer I will have to give back my MacBook. But it will be cheaper in the long run buy a new one than to keep going there. Even though I would still love to go there. But I really want to do Spanish and the study abroad programs. And also do my psychology to help the kids. So I think UCO is my best option.

People are jerks. Well some of them. Well.... Idk. People are starting to treat me like everyone else has ever treated me. I don't like it. Calling me "gay" and "fag". And making fun of the way I talk. Some of them prolly don't mean it. And idk. It's just really confusing. Idk. I don't like it. I'm not gay so it shouldn't bother me. I mean I can take a gay joke. But when people straight up call me gay. It hurts. And I shouldn't take these things so personally. But when people you care about straight up makes fun of you. It doesn't feel the greatest.